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I want to get in the Christmas spirit and start off (or end) the New Year on a good note. But it seems like nearly all my friendships are going through "a transitional stage." I guess change is always hard, especially when it feels like it's happening all at once. Habits are hard to break- friendships can turn into habits. I can look at situations and outings objectively and think- well, that wasn't really fun... or had more problems than good times. But for some odd reason, I have this loyalty to the past and people in my past. Like I think there is value in knowing people for years, or still talking with so and so from high school, or college. When really, I should leave the party before the lights get turned on, while the party is still decent. Not at the point when stuff unravels and turns ugly. I've never been one to walk away from my problems- or think "running away" is the answer.. but hell- maybe I should move to Paris. It's crazy that despite my adventurous spirit, I've worked in NYC for the last 5 years. I'm young. I should be doing something crazier. I read something about those born on April 15th in a birthday book today. As usual, it was spot on. Aside from saying my weakness was being judgemental (yes dad, it actually said that)- it also said that I have many different interests and am likely to have various careers and jobs throughout my lifetime. Wow- certainly fulfilled that one already! Also said that I'll finally be focused at around 35... I can deal with that. That sounds about right.

some thoughts from a friend that help- endings equal new beginnings.
when one thing ends another begins.

matter can not be destroyed nor created.